Shaky Foot Wisdom XX. The Ask and The Reply

28 Nov

Shaky Foot Wisdom XX. 

November 28, 2020 

The Ask and The Reply   

Where this story last left off, the ‘monster was on the run’ and I was quite relieved. 

Relief now has expanded and joy, my old friend, has come more often to visit and remind me of the limitless well of gratitude I feel for every aspect of my life, and even yes for a Parkinson’s diagnosis.  I am slowing down to appreciate all the good in my life.  In pushing myself at work I hit a breakpoint and that is where I discovered yet again the miracle of asking for what I want, stripped as bare as possible of expectations. 

Just a wee bit of more effort for another six weeks of full-time training and I will be settled back into my part-time routine doing work that does not demand as much out of me.  I am grateful that in asking for what I want, a solution was easily and almost effortlessly offered. 

What has arisen, especially in working full-time now for four weeks and anticipating another five weeks before a return to part-time work, is an all abiding sense of fatigue, perhaps due to Parkinson’s and perhaps exacerbated by several medications. 

In the midst of all of this, I like the rest of the world have been immersed in a COVID-19 Pandemic which has left many of us confused, isolated and weary.  Were it not for my soul connection with my beloved Dawn, I may not have coped with a diagnosis of Parkinson’s in the midst of a now nearly nine-month Pandemic. 

We have actually thrived in working from home these many months and I cannot imagine a return to an office work routine again. What I lean into now is a growing sense that there are forces far beyond myself guiding me atop the life raft that is my life.  I am ever afloat in calm seas with my eyes fixed upon a widening horizon.

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